A thought-provoking exploration of self-doubt and the freedom in accepting one's imperfections. This song, rich with cryptic imagery, invites listeners to reflect on the pressures of expectations while cherishing the moments of hedonistic bliss.
Calm down, I’m just saying I’m not what I thought I was
I’m thinking of telling Caiaphas whatever he wants
The sun shines bright but deep inside it's dark and cold
Maybe I’ll just go and have a drink, but I’m feeling old
The crown of thorns still whispers all my silent fears
To live or not, to dream, to cry, in laughter drowned in tears
Oh, do we dance, or do we crawl through these endless nights?
I weave my doubts in silver threads of feigned delights
The fire of desire, flickering bright but dim
I could be a king or a ghost in this life’s whim
I'm just a vessel, lost in sweet temptation here
Pour me another, drown me deeper in the cheer
There’s time to linger, there’s no need to take a stand
Who says I’m meant to walk this blessed, troubled land?
I drop my sword, let the shadows take their flight
Let me sink in sweetness, in the glory of the night
Oh, leave me be, for I am not your sacrifice
Just let me indulge in living, rolling life’s dice
To embrace the haze, the soft caress of every vice
Oh, Caiaphas, would you take my last refrain from me?
Take it all, I’m just the one who wishes not to see.
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Premise is a song dealing with self doubt and being ok with not meeting expectations, not sure what I want from life being honest, might just want to indulge in being lazy, hedonistic, having a good time. Written in the style of a Tim Rice ‘Jesus Christ superstar song’ from the perspective of Jesus but make the lyrics also ambiguous and cryptic like John Lennon
Follow this rhyming and syllable pattern: 1. Calm down I’m just saying I’m not what I thought I was
2. I’m thinking of telling Caiaphas whatever he wants
john lennon