Lost Connections
Alyssa Barba

we met young but grew apart fast ? childish shit you couldn’t leave in your past so I had a chance and I did the dash I wish I met sum one new i can’t go back if that’s an option sign me up fast spent my time hoping you’d do something right while you spent your time wasting mine I stop and paid close attention and still chose yo ass dumbass decision my daddy always said Alyssa make good decisions n I never did No wonder my Tmom always popped me in my shit fuck me tho gave what I could in exchange you took until I couldn’t I knew i put my life aside cuz you were dependent on me and I was depending on a nigga who was inconsistent n couldn’t care less if I was put last i was really going through it and you was getting through it’ ion get it did you like seeing how I’d wanna get high get high down bad did you love knowing I would’ve chose you even though you hated who I am you saw me as an addict not anymore I wasn’tu trippen I caught on I trip erryday if not me it’s you I guess the feeling became mutual use to have me excited couldn’t wait to bounce out if I knew I was coming home to put this pussy on you excited witchu now I’m exhausted laughing tryna duck n dive any interaction ima real bitch i stuck it out I get attached fast loves an addiction you either quit it or die trying and I get addicted quick and never plan on stopping shit whole time I’m down n you up I’m stuck and you run im lost text me lemme know if you safe n sound snd you never did you busy huh busy running round wit yo lil fit checkin out bitches seeing what hoes the easiest to get while I’m at home wishing I was bouncing on yo dick you disgust me never been shit unless you was disguising yoself in a real nigga outfit I know if I stay then that’s clearly a circus act love you a clown I was really jokin witchu thought you knew how unhappy I was guess the circus is perfect for you you not funny tho you never make me laugh you irritating n it’s wearing my love out fast you calling n texting just to hear yourself bitch I mean is you a nigga or a lil bitch hating on me for my reaction to yo hill billy actions now we both unhappy I swore to myself a nigga can’t get a free pass and ever disrespect me n can’t no hoe slide me or think they got me catch me looking scary commeeer bitch that mouth you got fynna get you knocked on yo ass bring tha whole fam so i can rock em all to bed .. it’s fuck yo rules i hope can’t stand a hand out when ion like you that’s why it’s funny until yo eye black n blue just zzz A don’t run now cuz you hearing gun sounds ..
pussy nigga I put it on yo life ima see you later before you rest yo eyes praying in the dark that you safe inside cuz I’m pulling g up once that location lemme load op and fynna paint my so wear ima catch you slippiqqng cuz this drug got me spinning tf I look like asking for help so you can claim you did shit for me you ain’t do nun for me but keep me living in your misery ion think I would’ve chose you if you was in a crowded in room I’d probably never notice you dude other niggas standing right beside you people to pick from standing In a room it’s funny how you the only one so I picked you lifes giving what you thought you wanted with a note taped on it saying surprise here’s this piece of shit give em a chance forgive and forget till it’s so bad you’d rather be dead since your existence isn’t really yours to live I guess I’m going where ever the wind blows sucks cuz sum mustve got thst confused and blew errybidy as the wind blew too i guess choosy susey wasnt thst choosey ignoring all the signs cuz bliss is better than knowing something i hate a super slow pick me pick me kinda bitch whole lotta mfs love those kinda chicks do what you want cuz you can’t tell a real bitch what to do fuck Errybody right now I need to choose the path that keeps me fto do right the left or the right idk but one path gon waist my time
It’s not mine that' path is a quick one way trip to suicide if you ain’t learned the first time yet
Sometimes nights drag on mad long while days end quicker im getting sicker dying quicker death taking Errybody quickly when a mf ask the date or time I shrug n say ion know. Tf ima keep track of death for I’d rather never know
So ion keep a watch on my wrist thank you tho im gonna smoke n forget bout it take a hit then doze off for a lil but no thought in my head could ever describe the this feeling when i realiz I’m inlove with tryna chase this fucken very feeling No
Soul can bring me that kind feeling we connected now but disconnected w my hate we can’t relate on each other

I wonder how that love you gave was taken back so quick
Like it never meant a' thing i was another person you once had in yo triflin' ass life
I got yo name carved in my bathroom wall I spit on it every time I take a shit i start tearing up cuz you wasn’t attracted to me you’d only want my mouth sucking the cum out l dick
dick would always be on limp I think bout it now n laugh a lil cuz wtf you gay as hell I wasn’t the problem little Johnny always whispered man down if there was pussy around
I picture how we could've been together if we just kept our shit together instead we slap the fuck out one another My favorite thing to do when I be in a mood cuz yo faggy ass was acting brand motherfuckin new
Was to show you what a bloody mess you created and made me do give me one reason I shouldn’t knock yo two front teeth out n give em back on Halloween cuz you just been tricked you ain’t deserve a fuckin treat you withering piece of shit. I wanna hurt you I even wanna throw a fresh pile of steaming corn fed shit I collected in someone toilet bowl so it feels good in yo mouth when you get to taste fresh corn straight from the shitter vegetables pieces crowd the spaces betteeen yo lce when you snoring fast asleep

I get yo animal instincts for always barking and reacting based on yo buddy’s shit whiff play at the dog park with the rest of your doggy friends
Oh and between me and you I’m tryna keep this info onna low
I keep a strand of yo hair so I can voodoo yo ass into a wheelchair
I wanna forget how shitty you treated me while I was payin' yo fuckin' coke bill or spending money I should’ve been saving up for a brand new wheel chair
Makes me wanna choke slam your head in a fat man’s cheesy butthole sweat
So yo momma can't recognize the piece of shit she birthed and she can’t smell the shitty disappointed that you refuse to accept
I still wear yo clothes
when I'm alone just to cut them up and mail the pieces to yo new bitch
I’m still missing undies that you wore and gave back with hella poop streaks that shit always give me the Ick cuz you sick
I was alone even witchu I felt alone just stuck plus I carried hate that ain't even mine, it's all yours I wanna see you eat all that dog shit clean out offoff your love
I call yo number just to tell yo voicemail exactly how I'ma fuck you up when I catch you dancing naked to our favorite song in my brand new thong knowing you don’t wash your ass you just let the water run a stream through the hairy part the meets the brown whole that ass
- [ ] And let that personal hate in yo heart pass like that dookie you didn’t he
- [ ] that I'm comin' for you yo daddy